Sunday, November 22, 2009


It has been almost a week this time. I cannot get rid of this headache. I have had neck pain, off and on, for years. I think it has been at least six. Although it has not been this bad for awhile. It starts out with sore shoulders and a sore neck. Then, as the pain becomes more acute, I start getting migraine symptoms. Lately, I have even been "seeing spots," or rather light spots that blur my vision for short periods at a time, a couple times a day. Light bothers me. Sound bothers me. I can't concentrate on anything, and I can barely think enough to form a damn sentence through the pain. I ice it. I do exercises for my back and my neck. I am becoming more aware of my posture, and trying to correct it. Nothing helps. I hurt and there is nothing that I can do. I have been to see a chiropractor many times throughout the years, and sometimes it helped, sometimes it didn't. In the past year, it hasn't. I threw my back out pretty badly twice this past summer, went to the doctor for it, and was "diagnosed" with a hypermobile spine. I went to physical therapy, and leaned a bunch of exercises to do to help strengthen my back because hypermobility means that my ligaments are very loose and I need to rely on my muscles to hold everything in place back there. I will be completely honest, I have slacked off a bit on my exercises since school started, and I don't do them every day. Trust me, though, I am paying the consequence. My back muscles started spasming again yesterday. Sadly, I can almost deal with the lower back pain when my neck feels like it does. I am going to go to the doctor again. But there is probably nothing to do. I just want to make sure that the whole seeing spots thing isn't life threatening or something, because that has never happened before. But as far as just the pain goes, nothing. I can't take pain killers, they make me extremely depressed. My doctor actually had to put down vicadin as a drug allergy because when I took it, I laid on my couch and didn't talk to anyone for two whole days. I don't think I moved except to go to the bathroom. Frankly, I just don't have time for that, and it didn't even help the pain. I have also taken muscle relaxers and anti-spasm medications, but I don't feel like they will do much for my neck or SI joints. That is the part of my back that hurts this time. Not really my back, but where it connects to my pelvis... they are just inflamed, so ibuprophen and ice should help that. I really don't know what to do about my neck though. I honestly can not even think right now. My attention span is down to about three seconds before I think about how much pain I am in. I can't deal with this.

1 comment:

  1. (((((Kaitlyn)))) I am so sorry that you are feeling like this. It really sucks doesn't it? I sympathize with you because this is how I feel all of the time. We will have to talk about this when we see each other for thanksgiving. You can't keep living like this. Pain fricken sucks and keeps you from being able to enjoy life. And how can you even pay attention in class or read or study or remember anything? My heart goes out to you. I hope you don't give up in figuring things out because there has to be a cause. Don't give up...we have to figure something out!!!! XX