A weird thing happened to me today... I woke up in just a terrible mood. And the day got worse with forgetting things, losing things, and my computer deciding not to work when I was planning on getting a chunk of PR work done....
and then I went to work...
And tah dah!!!!!!!!! I was in a great mood. :) For no particular reason.
I really needed this reminder of why I like my job. I had a fun day, and think this streak will continue.
I think it helps that I am continuously feeling better every day.... if you don't count me hurting my neck again.
But I just am starting to be okay with my life.
Honestly, I still don't really like it, but being okay with it isn't too far off. I found an apartment that I like and that I can afford... so hopefully my application will go through just fine and I can move in next week. I keep having this horrible feeling, though, that I won't be accepted. I just get scared that my lack of credit history and income will be a problem. My parents are willing to cosign though... I just hope it all goes well.
I can't wait to have my own place!!!! It;s tiny, but it will be mine... and for once it will be completely how I want it.
I'm getting better at not being so down on myself for not having found a job yet. Through talking with some people at work, I have realized that in this economy this can take years. It's unfortunate, but I have a job right now. I'm not broke. I can keep this job as long as I need to.
It's a work in progress, but I am starting to be happier.